Post IVF

It has been 2 weeks since the results are out. AF is already over and i am back at work, throwing myself into work which happens to be a busy period, enrolled in a gym and am going regularly *cross fingers* made plans to do more about the online shop and in fact met some pple over it. learning to write a biz plan, and figuring out the legal registration of the company.

i thought i was coping well with the failure.

on Sat, went for dinner at Yv, met a pregnant S and the whole bunch of kids and all of it came crashing back to me. looking at Yv younger boy and it came crashing to me that if my baby survive, he/she would be exactly that age.

Just why not me?

the pain is excrutiating. i wish i could cry and get rid of it once and forever, but no..it comes and goes..this empty feeling.