some reassurance needed

Fri 7 Oct 2005 - hit the big 3-0

after a sleepless night and waking at 3am to test if the line is still there, i decided that i cant wait till next tuesday. tues is like another 5 days to go which feels like 5 years to me.

I recalled what LA said about normal HCG levels doubling every two days. and called him to make an appt. i think i got him on the phone while he was brushing his teeth. in between gurgles and what not, i got an appt to see him at 9.45am and got the blood test done.

i got it right abt the HCG values doubling every other day, but the best indictation of a healthy pregnancy is when the HCG level hits 100. whcih means that my original estimate of 60 is way far off the healthy mark (mon 03/10 was 15, so if the HCG is suppose to double every 2 days, by fri it shd hover around 60)

by the time the blood sample was done, it was close to 11am. results are expected within 4 hours. though it wasnt till almost 5pm when i got the results.

it was 88. below 100 but it did more than double since Mon. the doc called and suggested i visit his clinic in the evening for another jab. he reinforce that if its a healthy pregnancy, HCG will continue to increase.

He did point out something that the jabs and medicine may not aid in keeping the pregnancy if its unhealthy to begin with, but at least we are doing everything we can to keep this precious one.

Those words strike a deep chord in me. After all that we been thru, this pregnancy is so very precious to us. while i hope and wait that it will be healthy as the days pass by, there is always a real and persistant nagging fear that it will leave us.


how much it cost us so far in follow up
LA Mon blood test $45
KL Wed visit $211
LA Fri AM $35
LA Fri Eve jab $60