Saw FY today - no reassurance given

i am so tired, so tired of this waiting and uncertainty.

FY ruled out ectopic pregnancy based on the blood HCG results, he said that its unlikely that it will be an ectopic pregnancy as the numbers did double, although its a little on the low side. I think he was very much understating the situation.

anyways he did another blood test, this time for beta HCG as well as progesterone. an interesting fact * synthetic progesterone like Duphaston cannot be measured in the blood stream, hence the progesterone blood test will really show the actual (natural) level of progesterone in the body.

The idea is that progesterone will help support the pregnancy, if one has insufficient progesterone, there will be indications like cramping and spotting, both very bad signs. He also gave me utrogestan (which is a natural progesterone).

FY was unable to giveme any reassurance as to how the pregnancy will developed other than saying that the numbers are really too low. I asked him how low is it actually, he hesitated a bit and then replied that at this stage (of about week 5 and a half) - the HCG level is supposed to be at the 10,000 plus range (mine is only 88 as of 07/10 fri).

Only when the HCG rises to above 10,000, then the sac can be seen. and the sac is usally seen at around week 5. heartbeat at week 6.

he said that the baby could be developing slowly, as long as the HCG levels do double very other day, there is still hope that it will catch up.

I asked if it will affect the baby development in the future, he hesitated a bit before replying that its unlikely so long the baby continues to developed and be monitored in the next couple of months. for that moment, the thought of having a mentally slow child because of us trying too hard to keep the pregnancy scared me out of my wits.

i am so tired of the waiting and the uncertainity. i need to talk to the other company about the job offer. i need to sign and return the letter by the mid of next week. what should i tell them? what shd i do?

on a bit of humour, FY suggested just sign and accept the offer first, they will never know u are preggy as it wont show yet. eh great advice from a gynae. lol.

on another bit of humour, this morning hubby tried on his suit made for the wedding, the suit shrunk quite a bit from the dry cleaning - until we realised that we got the wrong suits back. and this was like almost a year back.

We sent the suit for dry cleaning at the bridal salon and didnt checked it when it was returned to us. after a frenetic search for the invoice, we then sheepishly realised we got the wrong suits back.

Thk goodness, we managed to contact the gal at the salon. she kept our suit and we did an exchange. that was hubbys boo-ha number 1.

subsequently we went for breakfast at that food centre in chinatown. hubby got up to get additioanl ice and then when he returned, sat down at a completely different table and startled not only me but also the poor woman at that table.

poor hubby, i couldnt stop laughing, neither could the woman too. we looked at each other and just continued laughing. fortunately we finished our breakfast already and quickly left. boo ha number 2.

it was still early for the gynae appt, even after we ran all the errands we started to do. so we went shopping at paragon. We got some nice checked boxers from M & S, hey they do carry super sizes.

We then decided to head to toy r us, and we walked together to the escalators upwards, and of course hubby walked onto the one leading downwards and look startled when i am going up and hes well not going anywhere on a down riding one. boo ha number 3.

the caucasian guy who was sitting at the bench opposite the escalator just laughed and laughed, i m glad we made his day. *wryly*

i will be going back to work tomorrow, the spotting has already stopped and the rest is just up to fate. i never did believed in fate and i still dont believe in fate. whatever will be, will be. nothing more nothing less.

a couple of the gals sms me just now. i really appreciate their concern. Thks S and J. tks for your thoughts.

tracking cost
FY 156.50